Day 6

Today has just been an overall great day. No evil food temptations and I squeezed in a quick walk with my little girl and dog before it started to rain. It took us forever to walk though because my little one had to pick up every stick we saw and throw it in some form of water and the dog kept running on the wrong side of the telephone poles.

Day 5

I woke up today in an amazing mood. Still sick and I slept poorly due to several dreams about my alarm clock going off. It doesn't matter though, being tired will not hold me back. I feel good. Amazing even.

I slipped after I made Peyton lunch. That cold delicious left over fried chicken was calling my name, and I ate some. More than I should. It made me feel gross. So I took 2 of my kiddos and my dog for a walk and burned off some of the calories I consumed. I don't feel as guilty now, but I am worried about how easy it was for me to cheat.

I didn't do my best today, but I am not perfect. I will make sure I drink all my water, I will make sure my dinner is healthy and I will move on. I can't change what I did today, but I can't beat myself up for it forever. Tomorrow is a new day and I can make sure that tomorrow I am successful in my journey.

I made sure I ate a healthy, balanced dinner tonight and brushed off my chicken mishap. Beating myself up continuously is a dumb move and isn't going to help me in my journey.
Tomorrow is supposed to rain, I am hoping to get a walk in before it does. We will see.

Day 4

Day 4 has started on a down note for me. Nothing specific, just a headache and my kids throwing last minute things at me and revving up my anxiety. Normally I would soothe my anxiety with some sort of food. That is no longer an option, so I need to find a way to get rid of it. If it wasn't so cold and windy out I would take a walk, but it feels like 16 even though it is 29. I am all set.

I need to figure out new 100 calorie snacks. Right now I am doing the Slim Fast Bars and they are delicious and satisfy my sweet craving wonderfully, but I need some variety. I'm definitely going to grab some 100 calorie popcorn and probably rice cakes.

I made it through the day okay today, the worst part is this cold I have. Its just a runny nose, ton of sneezing and some sinus pain/pressure, but it is annoying.
My dinner was delicious and super filling. I had soup, a hummus sandwich and a sweet potato and I still stayed under my calorie limit for the day. I even managed to resist my husband's famous fried chicken, even though I really wanted a piece. I was ridiculously proud of myself for resisting such a temptation.

Day 3

Today has been much, much better than yesterday.  I don't have a headache, I'm not ready to kill anyone. and I don't feel dizzy. I actually feel pretty good. 
Even better? I feel good about myself. I still need to start exercising, it has just been so cold for the end of March. I am ready to shed the pounds and find the healthy me that is hiding inside though.

I know I have a lot of weight to lose and a long way to go. It isn't going to happen overnight, or even in a month or two, but if I keep trying and working, it will happen. There will come a day when I feel comfortable in a bathing suit or shorts. That day isn't anytime soon, but it will come. 

Edit: I made it through dinner and enjoyed my soup and hummus on a sandwich thin very much, but I can't say that the French toast my husband is cooking the kids doesn't smell mouth-watering. I am a little jealous, I will admit.

Day 2

Today has not been so easy. I am ready to kill someone and have a terrible headache too. I'm hoping that once I get through the first week, it gets easier. I'm not sure what to eat for dinner today, my spinach and egg whites didn't really fill me up last night.

Day 1

Today is the first day of my weight loss journey. I am at my second highest weight ever, and it's only
5 pounds less than my all time highest.
Something has to change. I have three children that  I want to be around for.

I am doing Slim Fast. I hope the shakes and snack bars help with my ridiculous sweet cravings. I also started taking a daily multivitamin (finally) and some Glucosamine Chondroitin for my joints, which will hopefully make it easier for me to exercise.

I started this blog really for myself. I don't expect that anyone is actually going to see it, except for who I share it with. I want to be able to look back at some point in the future and be grateful that I don't weigh this amount anymore. I want to be proud of myself for sticking with it for once and achieving results.

Edit: I made it through the first day okay. Had a few moments of hunger,but I made it through. By next week I will start exercising to take off even more. I can do this. Where I have given up before, this time I will push through.